Just give it a try

 

 I am always thinking doing a blog with English though am not confident with my English so I postponed it for a really long time but I decided to give it a try. It must be unbearable to read for first few tries but I will do my best.

 Before further ado I think I need to introduce myself. My name is Ryoga and I am Japanese guy and am 21 years old right now currently staying in New Zealand with Working Holiday visa. I'm from Ishikawa prefecture.

 What makes me want to do blogging today is that the interview of Yukio Mishima Rowena M. (who kindly followed me back) reposted on Bluesky.

https://youtu.be/hLGMm6c_BCA?si=SQ7w5Kvd49bB_Xdv

 The video was insightful and got me thinking. I'm not that familiar with Mishima's novels and etc. I only read "The Temple of Golden Pavilion" before and I barely remember what he was trying to tell in the novel. I only knew he was born in 1925 the beginning of "Showa" era and killed himself by Seppuku. 

 He was talking about WWII and death in the video and I'll talk about what I thought about the story of WWII he was talking about. 

First of all I'm mesmerized how his Japanese is beautiful, the way he talk about the sun he felt on that day we were defeated and none of the surroundings were changed and this is the interview video thus his words were based on his improvisation. 

I think most notable thing and what he wanted to tell most was about the "new era of intelligent reconstruction". As he talked in the video, 20 years after the war he had a doubt about that concept and he was almost for sure that the thing like "intelligent reconstruction" was never happened. I totally agree with his opinion and think the thing had never happened and that devastating me. He said at the last moment of WWII section "No matter how long I live the sunlight of that August 15th, that intense sunlight in the summer trees, untouched by that pivotal moment, will remain in my memory forever." as though he is implying none of us also hadn't changed either even we past through the devastating "path of defeat and destruction"

I'm sure the untouched pivotal moment is still remaining in Japanese society and that leads to the release of wastewater from Fukushima. I don't know how to regain the trust from other society or maybe we can't do for forever by the sin of destroying the sea and the world.

A proportion and a style of the video also remind me the Oppenheimer's interview or confession.

https://youtu.be/lb13ynu3Iac?si=JRMOw-y-FAxTERFh

Now we are become death, the destroyer of the worlds, other way around this time and what makes it even worse is absence of guiltiness, sincere regret.

I was born in 2002 so I have never experienced a war in my life. My most intimate memory with war is the story that was told from my grandfather from mother side. My mother is a youngest one in her siblings and also I'm a third child in the siblings of 4 so coincidentally there was a big age gap between my grandfather and I almost 70 years that big enough to made him experience WWII. He was working in a navy factory as well. He was born in Kanazawa city that never had an air raid while WWII. He used to told me about the reason why Kanazawa never had an air raid, that he told me he could see the sky turned red at the night time in the direction of Toyama and his senior decided to close all of the factory nearby and evacuated labours including my grandfather so US had no reason to do an air raid on Kanazawa. I don't say it's an exact reason but I think I was blessed at least that I had a grandfather who told me about the war time. I've never heard how the end of war affected him and wish I could heard about it from him but he is gone now.

I brought "Confessions of a Mask" with me to New Zealand but haven't read it yet, now maybe it's the time to read it.

I will leave a note just in case to know how long it took me to write this blog. 90 mins